Those You Love

Oh Lord, I want to write sweet lovely things and since I can’t, I’m at a loss.
I know now that it’s because today, with me, you will be cross.

There are things I have overlooked, and this is unacceptable to you.
Make me understand; show me exactly what I need to do.

When you numb your pain, and numb your thought,
Tell me, what lies do you think you bought?

When you anaesthetize your your heart and mind,
Tell me, what real comfort do you find?

When you cover your ears and eyes and refuse to hear or see,
Tell me, what glory do you give Me?

I’m sorry, Lord, that in my despair
I fell in error.

I’m sorry, Lord, that led by fear
I refused to see or hear.

I’m sorry, Lord, that in my attempt to numb the pain in my heart
I hurt you from the start.

I know now that you want me to triumph above all difficulties
And never stop trusting you.
Come, Holy Spirit, help me and teach me how to carry through.

I know now that you want me to obey you; not in part, but in all.

Come, Holy Spirit, help me and hod me; don't let me fall.

I can run, and numb, and anaesthetize my pain,
Out of this, what can I gain?

Only more pain.
So heal and cleanse me, Lord, with your blessed rain.

Dress me in the white robe you have for me.
Open my eyes that I may see.

Place my name in the book of life.
Grant me by your grace, eternal life.

Please forgive me for my failed attempt.
Forgive me for treating others and myself with such contempt.

I know now that you want my love to conquer every fear.
Come, Holy Spirit, let it be your voice, and not the enemie's, I hear.

I choose to repent and mend my way.
It is you alone, my God, I will obey.

I gladly accept your correction, your rod.
Lead me, Holy Spirit, to repentance, that I may find favor before my God.

I drop to my knees, and look up to you in the heavens above.
I am in awe, Lord, that you would care for me like a precious dove.
I know now that you only reprimand and correct those you love.

Ana Cecilia Petersen
17/2/07

Lord, make me ever obedient to You alone.